Of Insomnia

So, I kinda sorta have insomnia. But it's not severe so I refuse to talk to anyone about it. Besides, I realize the source of it, I just can't fix it. I always worry about thing before I sleep. All surrounding my uncertainties in life, especially with being good enough. It's distressing, but I contain it well. It's also probable that if j actually talked to someone about things it wouldn't be as bad. But I'd much rather internalize everything and solve it all myself. (Which hasn't gotten me very far.) 

Does hard work always pay off?

So, the academic year is coming to an end and there are so many things I feel like I have either failed at or just didn't fully accomplish. I've been thinking a lot lately about how "hard work pays off". Let's be honest, hard work is important and hard work doesn't guarantee anything in life. Nothing does. It just feels like there are so many things I've tried to accomplish but I literally canNOT reach them. The more I think about schools, college,  and everything else; the angstier I become.