So, I decided to try a Chinese restaurant called Peking.

And the service is terrible. I've waited at least an hour for delivery and the woman at the front desk is so rude. Honestly, as long as it has taken, I could've just waited till 5:30 when dinner is. 

All of the girls at my school are ganging up on the freshmen.

It's so dumb. Like, you were just a freshmen a few years ago. Like, shut up. Especially if you're supposed to be a freshmen. What kills me is when sophomores are doing the bashing. You stopped being a freshmen like, a few months ago, you're not that special. If you're gonna bash someone, bash them because they suck not because of their age or grade. 

So, my father's attempt to fix our relationship (via text mind you) included:

• Making excuses about how his father wasn't there for him
• How he didn't have anyone to really show him love
• How everyone he loves is dying
• And basically making seem like we've had such a perfect relationship.

Here's the truth about our relationship

• He was never there for me
• He's been to 5 of my my birthdays at the most
• He's never lived more than 30 minutes away from me
• I've hung out with him, maybe 20 times. 
• He's constantly letting me down
• He's willing to raise his wife's children but was never there for me.
• He act as if it bother him to pay what little child support he has to pay
• Overall, he's a dead beat.

Stop making excuses and own up to the fact that you're the problem. We didn't have a relationship to begin with. You came and went as you please and you choose now, when i'm practically an adult to try and fix things? And you can't even do that. I'm tired of being some toy you can use as you please. I honestly, do not care anymore. I'm done. I moved on a long time ago so I suggest you do the same.

I find being alone to be so comforting

but I want to be in a relationship. Not out of desperation, just because i'd like to have someone display intimacy with. I have all these fantasies of what kind of guy I want and though it's not a lot i'm asking for, I still can't seem to find it. Maybe with this move to Chicago, it'll be a new start. But I don't know. I thought that when I came to school and when we moved across town. I won't know anyone except my step brother's friend and how often will I chill with them? Fml.

Outfit of The Day

                                               (this whole outfit was like, $25)

Even when I have money,

I feel bad about spending it. I had $63 and spent all but almost $20 of it and got a bunch of stuff for bargains and fed myself. I'm good at managing money but I always feel bad about spending it....

So,

My father called my mother talking abut how he wanted to make amends for 15 years of terrible parenting. Yeah dad, I gave you a chance when I was in middle school and you screwed that over. I've given you so many chances and you do the same thing each time. I'm happy, i'm doing fine. Don't ruin it for me. I'm practically an adult and now you want to care? No. I don't need you and I never did. I don't care anymore. I feel absolutely nothing when I think about you. To be quite honest the only thing I will ever regret is not telling how I felt. 

Feeling some hardcore nostalgia

I plan on watching crap tons of old Disney movies this movies as well as my favorite childhood Halloween movies (and maybe a few scary movies). I love October, well, I love the fall in general but October is just...amazing. 

Parents, take responsibility.

I absolutely hate when parents blame television for their children's behavior. Those shows are on for 30 minutes at a time. You raise your child until the day you die. If that 30 minutes influences your child's behavior and thoughts more than you do, there's a problem. Majority of the stars on these shoes are adults. Why would you allow your child to mimic an adult? You influence your child the most, so tell them what is and isn't age appropriate. Stop trying to blame actors and blame yourself. You have ultimate control of what your child does and watches. So take advantage of that. Sure, they can look up to a star but that shouldn't be the only thing they have to look up to.

Fashion Police

That is without a doubt the dumbest show. It's 3 D list "celebrities" and a dinosaur who wear the same black dress but with different, tacky accessories each show complaining about A-B list celebrities wearing things they couldn't even afford. They seriously tried to complain about Victoria Justice's dress because it's backless. I'm sorry but, you shouldn't be complaining about an 18 year old who plays a high school student on a television show when they make padded bras and g-strings for 4th graders. The show is not targeted towards children. It's a show about a high school student. Just stop talking.

(here's the dress she was wearing.)

I don't understand,

Why do girls flaunt teenage pregnancy like it's cute? Because it's not. You don't even have your diploma but you have a baby? That's not something to be proud of. You don't have a plan on how to take care of yourself, let alone a baby but you're proud of that?