Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Not so much resolutions.

Since the new year is coming, many people are making their resolutions. I don't really like to make resolutions. There are things that I will always continuously need to work on and I'm going to work on that from now until the day I die. Therefore, I don't confine things changes to one year (a bit hipsteresque, i know). Despite my lack off resolutions, there are a few things I want to especially focus on. For one,
I want to lose at last 30 pounds before the summer. I had began working out last year but, I've hit a plateau  I lost a relatively nice amount of weight. However, I haven't worked out in over a month and probably won't have a chance to until February. Therefore, I'm gonna have to work twice as hard to lose the initial weight plus any weight I've gained. I'm gonna have to put a greater focus on eating better and working out more. By eating better I mean actually eating instead of skipping meals because they're terrible. An even bigger focus is maintaining my GPA and grades. I know there are certain areas I need to work on academically and my goal is to improve in these areas to the best of my ability. (I also need to take my SAT which I'm not necessarily looking forward to). As for relationships, there is minimal focus on this area. If I meet someone, that's awesome. If I don't, even more awesome. This year, I've had very few "relationships" and they've ended on pretty jank notes. Therefore, the mature members of the male species will just have to search me out. I will NOT be searching for them. My greatest goal is just to continue to better myself mentally and emotionally. I've made great strides since forever ago but there are still things I want to adjust about myself. Thankfully, I have an open-mind so I continue to remain open to new ways to improve myself. Ultimately  this year is going to be what I make it. Alongside my friends, I plan on making this year excellent. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

I can feel it

That feeling that everything is going to crash. I don't feel secure in my current positions and I hate that. Trying not to let it affect me is even harder. I just want affirmation and honesty. I feel like the majority stems from one problem in particular but, once that is solved...then what? I hate this.