Why do guys ask girls for 'pics'?

What purpose does it serve? Like, is it material for masturbation? If that is the case that is what bangbros, pornhub, and countless other porn sites are for. If you really wanted to see me naked you'd come and see me. Not only that but it's typically not the guy you're in a relationship with who asks for pics. Why would I give pics to someone who i'm not in a relationship with? And then for you to have the audacity to get an attitude and stop talking to me because I don't want to send you my pics? It's good to know what kind of dude you are so now I can move on to someone better. But thank you for wasting my time in the first place. I really needed that. 

Going Back

Although I could care less about having to go to school; I'm excited that I can go back and continue with my workout routine. Unfortunately, I gained weight while on break but that just means more work. I refuse to slack off. I'm tired of waking up and not liking what I see. I WILL stay motivated and I will reach my goal.

Another reason I don't want to go back is because I just don't want to have to deal with the annoying people at my school and all of the drama i'm sure will be raging. Oh the perks of an all girls school. But at the end of the day, I'm done with the drama so I could care less. I'm so done with being "nice" at this point anyone who has ever done me dirty is now off my line of communication. I don't need it and I don't care. I'd rather be happy and me and have a bunch of annoying girls dislike me then try to win approval from a bunch of people who don't care about me or make a difference in my life. I'm beyond done with the crap at this point. 

Sometimes

I think that maybe I should change my ways. But then I began to think why? Who am I changing for and why? Why should I change for people who don't matter and/or don't care about me? If I'm going to change it's going to be for myself. I know my flaw and faults and I work on them but I won't do anything I feel in my heart that I should do.

But I feel like I have changed and I don't know if it's for the better or the worst. Or maybe I haven't changed. I'm still me but I'm only letting a certain side of me be shown. I try to show all my colors and who I am but I don't know if it's going so well.

I've got a lot of thinking and self evaluating to do. 

BOYS BOYS BOYS

Ugh, Boys. Amazing but often confusing. I'm talking to a new boy now and I just feel so awkward. Like, I'm awesome at helping my friends talk to guys but when I talk to them it's like, "OHMYLORD WHAT SHOULD I SAY NEXT!" It's so nerve racking. And in the back of my mind I keep thinking, what if he finds someone prettier, thinner, or even just overall better. But at the same time, it's just a boy. Life will go on and I'll meet more but, this is just such a conflicting situation.

P.S. I've lost 12  pounds (:

The good life

I go on spring break in less than 2 days and i'm beyond excited. I'm going to hang out with my best friends and either go to Miami or New York. I'm super excited. Honestly, I want to go all out for Spring break. Like, a mini Project X. We'll see how well that blows over (: