I'm tired of people continuously pointing out the obvious.

Yes, I know I'm fat. I've known that forever. I don't think I need anyone to tell me what my body looks like, especially if you're overweight yourself. I work out and don't eat a punch of junk food. I don't eat as often as I should be when I do I eat healthy. Stop focusing on the fact that i'm fat and acknowledge the fact that I'm putting in work to change it. Constant criticism isn't going to help me. Either give advice or don't say anything. 

I really need to get back on working out.

I've just stopped. I need to kick it in gear. I'm letting all my hard work go to waste. I refuse to give up. I need to get over my laziness and get up.

I remember how I had this fantasy of what high school should be.

And that fantasy has failed miserably. I also dreamed of meeting a guy who wasn't crap and just enjoying high school. I have meet many guys and it's gone nowhere. It's like all the guys I'm attracted to are nowhere to be found. I'm just sitting around like a lonely potato. But, you get over it. You find a way to get over it and move on. 

I wonder if I've been strong for too long.

But at the same time, I know I have to be strong. For her, for me, for everyone else. But I can' let my guard down. It's not me. It's hard and I just feel like I just need to stick with it. I don't know. I can't put everything I need to say or feel like I need to say in words. I'm just tired and stressed. 

Congrats me!

I always belittle my weight loss progress. I just act like it never happened and I didn't work hard but looking back I have made progress. I haven't made as much progress I want but I'm still working hard and that's all that mattered. This summer, is the make it or break it point for me.

I wonder if I could've handled it better.

But then again, do I care to cry? Like, I feel like I should've just so things would be better. But I don't care. I feel like this friendship was a waste. But we had good times. But they're not good enough to salvage. It just was too much effort. But I feel like this ended terribly. 

I'm over it

I'm so over these people and the foolishness. Like, I don't understand it. Maybe it's because of the school year coming to an end and I'm just done. Or maybe, I'm just over everything. I don't know. But I can honestly say there's about 2 people I want to talk to and be around right about now. Maybe I'm just annoyed with all the crap being spewed out. Whether online or in person. I'm tired of it. I don't care. But just because I don't care doesn't mean everyone else doesn't.