Of Insomnia

So, I kinda sorta have insomnia. But it's not severe so I refuse to talk to anyone about it. Besides, I realize the source of it, I just can't fix it. I always worry about thing before I sleep. All surrounding my uncertainties in life, especially with being good enough. It's distressing, but I contain it well. It's also probable that if j actually talked to someone about things it wouldn't be as bad. But I'd much rather internalize everything and solve it all myself. (Which hasn't gotten me very far.) 

I don't like talking about my problems.

I don't feel like I should set and talk about my problems when there are other people in the world who have life so much harder. My problems lack in comparison and I don't have a reason to feel the way I do sometimes. Sometimes I wish I had a really tough lie so I could have a reason for feeling the way I do. But I don't, so why go around talking about my problems. But I don't feel anything enough to actually care about my problems...

Even when I have money,

I feel bad about spending it. I had $63 and spent all but almost $20 of it and got a bunch of stuff for bargains and fed myself. I'm good at managing money but I always feel bad about spending it....