I wonder if I've been strong for too long.

But at the same time, I know I have to be strong. For her, for me, for everyone else. But I can' let my guard down. It's not me. It's hard and I just feel like I just need to stick with it. I don't know. I can't put everything I need to say or feel like I need to say in words. I'm just tired and stressed. 

Congrats me!

I always belittle my weight loss progress. I just act like it never happened and I didn't work hard but looking back I have made progress. I haven't made as much progress I want but I'm still working hard and that's all that mattered. This summer, is the make it or break it point for me.

I wonder if I could've handled it better.

But then again, do I care to cry? Like, I feel like I should've just so things would be better. But I don't care. I feel like this friendship was a waste. But we had good times. But they're not good enough to salvage. It just was too much effort. But I feel like this ended terribly.